isn't it funny
2006-08-11, 4:05 p.m.

Well I've been consistantly blogging on myspace, then the blog got popular with people who actually know me, and I can't blatantly speak about things anymore without being all enigmatic about it. SO...shit that's been going on.

The new job worked out for a few months until I realized I couldn't save any money to move out because gas was eating me alive. I ended up leaving, but not before meeting some people who've changed my life.

A, the guy who trained me. About a month after training class ended, he asked me to go up to a rave in cleveland with him and a bunch of friends. We'd felt the magnetism of one another all through class, and were finally able to tell each other. We've been together since june in an open relationship, which closed at his request in mid-july. He'd kept saying how we weren't exclusive, I kept asking him how he felt about this guy or that guy, and he was always so noncommital I realized he probably didn't care that much. I was with someone else, told him what happened, and he confessed that his feelings ran a lot deeper than he thought until he knew there'd been someone else. He still confuses the hell out of me, as I like reassurance that I'm important, and he seems to think it's unnecessary. One of those "if I change my mind, I'll let you know" type of people.

J, my best friend. He and I got so incredibly close so very quickly. I'm crazy about him and so glad he's my friend.

That's about it on the people who changed my life there. There were a few others I met, but won't prove important the way A and J are.

Right now I'm at a kind of floaty stage. Waiting to see if I got the shitty job I interviewed for last week so I can have money to go look for a better job. Sigh. I hate money.